I read a lot. That is a fact everyone knows about me; I like to read. But a lot of the time I find my self reading books that I have read before.. and not always that long ago. Some people will read a book that was their favorite when they were a kid and its kind of a nostalgic experience.. that's not really what I mean. I will read a book over and over again, while still getting totally involved in it each time. I just love the book and I love the story or the experience of reading it or the humor in it or whatever the reason, I'll read a book 4 times in a year. What a waste of my time. Granted i memorize the book a little more each time but there are new books out there, books I'm sure I will love.... But I know that I will enjoy the old book so I will end up just reading that. I'm reading Harry Potter 5 again right now, probably for the 6th time (at least). While I am able to function while still reading, I can actually put it down after 3 chapters at night but the point is that I am re-reading this book that I could probably quote to you by now. Well, I could at least summarize each chapter without looking. My dad told me the other day, "You know there are other books out there right? New books with new plots and new characters...." Yes I know that but what if I can't get into it? What if I'm not in the mood for that book or it's not funny enough or it takes more that one chapter for me to get involved in it? Now for me those are stupid questions to be asking since I love books and am rarely disappointing by a book...yet I haven't been reading anything new... I feel like I that way with God too. I know that he has bigger and better things for me but I hold back, I stick with what is comfortable right now because I know what to expect and how to react. I am safe here. Yes the bible tells me that God wants to pour out His blessing upon me, that he wants to protect me and hold me and cherish me. That God has innumerably more things for me that I can literally not even imagine, if I obey. If I am strong and courageous and follow hard after Him... I'm wasting my time and I'm wasting His gifts. I just love Harry Potter and don't want to move on, even though it's getting old, I know the story and I know the ending. I get bored faster yet I can't let go. I'm sorry God, I want to move on but I'll need your help, please.
No comments:
Post a Comment